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*this is me....just me....no covers....ur just seeing me for who i am*

*i've never felt like this before*

Name:
jus_let_me_b
Birthdate:
21 July
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*THANK YOU
Every day was the same
Full of hate, full of pain
My heart was broken
The scars ran so deep
Like this blood
Pouring out of me
I was so cold
I was all alone.

And I was falling
And that’s when you caught me
And you lifted me up
And now I feel like I can breathe

So I wanna say thank you
For uncovering me
And yeah I wanna say I love you
Because you let me be
And can I say thank you
For helping me get through it all
And can I say I love you
For catching me when I fall

I can’t even remember
Why I felt so bad
Because I don’t even miss
Being that sad
I don’t wanna talk
I just wanna look at you
And I don’t wanna cry
I just wanna be with you
Forever
And ever
And ever

And I was falling
And that’s when you caught me
And you lifted me up
And now I feel like I can breathe

So I wanna say thank you
For uncovering me
And yeah I wanna say I love you
Because you let me be
And can I say thank you
For helping me get through it all
And can I say I love you
For catching me when I fall

And when I think
Back to it all
Back to when
I would just fall
I think of
How much
How much
I love you
And how much
You don’t know how much
I wanna say
Thank you.

And so I wanna say thank you
For uncovering me
And yeah I wanna say I love you
Because you let me be
And can I say thank you
For helping me get through it all
And can I say I love you
For catching me when I fall
And can I say I love you
Coz I wanna say I love you
And can I say thank you
Coz I wanna say thank you.
Thank you.x*

*and there's nothing wrong with me
this is how i'm supposed to be*

*it's easier to run
replacing this pain
with something numb
its so much easier to go
then face all despair
you're all alone*

*When I look
Into your eyes
There’s nothing there to see
Nothing but my own
Mistakes
Staring back at me

I’ve lied to you
This is the last smile
That I’ll fake
For the sake
Of being with you

Everything falls apart
Even the people that never frown
Eventually break down
Everything has to end
Its so fine we don’t have enough
Time to watch it all unwind
Everything falls apart
Even the people that never frown
Eventually break down
Everything has to end
Its so fine we don’t have enough
Time to watch it all unwind

The sacrifice is never knowing

Why I stay
When you just push away
No matter what
You see
You’re still
So blind to me

I’ve tried
Like you
To do everything you ought to do
This is
The last time
I’ll take the blame for the sake of being
With you


Everything has to end
Its so fine we don’t have enough
Time to watch it all unwind
Everything falls apart
Even the people that never frown
Eventually break down
Everything has to end
Its so fine we don’t have enough
Time to watch it all unwind

The sacrifice is never knowing

Why I stay
When you just push away
No matter what
You see
You’re still
So blind to me

When I look
Into your eyes
There’s nothing there to see
Nothing but my own
Mistakes
Staring back at me
Asking why

The sacrifice is never knowing

Why I stay
When you just push away
No matter what
You see
You’re still
So blind to me*


*GOODBYE
I always thought
You were the one
I always believed
It was more than just fun

It’s funny how you
Didn’t feel that way
It’s funny that I loved you
More with each day

Why would you lift me up so high?
And then leave me here alone to die

You fucked me up
Then you leave me to die
You ripped out my heart
And left me to cry
Somehow I still need you
But I can’t have you
So this is goodbye.

Can someone please help me
I’m too weak to fight alone
This is goodbye
I don’t wanna end up alone
You frustrate me, aggravate me
Yet I still wanna hold you

Why would you lift me up so high?
And then leave me here alone to die

You fucked me up
Then you leave me to die
You ripped out my heart
And left me to cry
Somehow I still need you
But I can’t have you
So this is goodbye.

All
Of these scars
Yes they remind me
Of you
And all
Of these thoughts
They all lead back
To you
To you
But I can’t have you
And I don’t want to
But I have to say goodbye

You fucked me up
Then you leave me to die
You ripped out my heart
And left me to cry
Somehow I still need you
But I can’t have you
So this is goodbye.*


*THANK YOU (AGAIN)
So this is my story
Of each day
I wake up in
The same old way
Full of pain and
Hoping to die
My heart is bleeding
All I do is cry
I stay in all day
And cry all night
What’s the point
In trying to fight?

But you uncovered my eyes
Yeah, I’ve never felt so alive

So thank you
For everything
Yeah and thank you
For helping me breathe
So I love you
Because of everything
And yeah I love you
For helping me breathe

You stripped me
Of all my covers
And you loved me
Unlike any other
You showed me the world
And mended this heart
You held me so tight
And took me apart

And you uncovered my eyes
Yeah and you made me feel so alive

So thank you
For everything
Yeah and thank you
For letting me breathe
So I love you
Because of everything
Yeah and I love you
For letting me breathe
Yeah and thank you
For letting me be
Yeah and I love you
For saving me.
Thank you.x*


*
*PICTURE PERFECT
So I’m crying again
In my room
And I’m yelling again
And you’re yelling at me too
I slam the door shut
To block out your voice
I hate this house
This home full of noise

Something’s missing
But I can’t work it out

I’m looking at this picture
And something’s going wrong
This picture of our family
And I know I don’t belong
I have a smile which I
Have on just to make you happy
I know that you don’t like
Who I am today
But why can’t this picture be perfect?

I know you’re disappointed
In me as always
I just try to make you
Proud, day after day
Did you know you used
To be my hero?
That saved me from
My nightmares
That protected me
When I was scared

But now something’s missing
And I can’t work it out

I’m looking at this picture
And something’s going wrong
This picture of our family
And I know I don’t belong
I have a smile which I
Have on just to make you happy
I know that you don’t like
Who I am today
But why can’t this picture be perfect?

Why can’t this picture
Be perfect?
Why can’t you ever
Learn that
I’m not who you might think
That I am
And you don’t even try to understand

And that’s why

I’m looking at this picture
And something’s going wrong
This picture of our family
And I know I don’t belong
I have a smile which I
Have on just to make you happy
I know that you don’t like
Who I am today
But why can’t this picture be perfect?*


*AMAZING
So here we go again
All being dragged down
That same old road
Again
Can you hear the rain?
Falling on the ground
Making us all low
Again.

You’re all running ahead of me
I can’t keep up with your pace
I’m being left behind again
And you’re winning this race

But then you
Lost it all
And here
We all fall
But you
Stopped to
Help me up
And get through
This mess up
You all helped me
Along the way
You all held my hand
And told me
That it would be ok
And you are truly
Amazing

So there I was
Pushing you all away
But you all
Pushed me through
Each day
And as I fell down
You picked me up
And when I hit the ground
You helped me up
And cleaned these wounds
And wiped these tears
You helped me through
And fought my fears

You’re all running ahead of me
I can’t keep up with your pace
I’m being left behind again
And you’re winning this race

But then you
Lost it all
And here
We all fall
But you
Stopped to
Help me up
And get through
This mess up
You all helped me
Along the way
You all held my hand
And told me
That it would be ok
And you are truly
Amazing

So I want to say thank you
To you all
And when I go
Please don’t fall
And I want to say thank you
To all of you
And when I leave
Please don’t leave too
So I wanna say thank you
I don’t ever wanna fight
Yeah, yeah, thank you
I will wait for you on the other side


I’m being left behind again
And all I can hear is the rain

But then you
Lost it all
And here
We all fall
But you
Stopped to
Help me up
And get through
This mess up
You all helped me
Along the way
You all held my hand
And told me
That it would be ok
And you are truly
Amazing*


*SO BEAUTIFUL TO ME
You’re not supposed
To be feeling this pain
You never should be
Feeling this way
You’re smiles fading
Away in the dark
You’re soul is being
Ripped apart

They all look at you
But they don’t see you
They all hear you
But they don’t listen to you
No they’re not listening
No ones listening

So please would you just
Hold on forever
Pick yourself up and just
Get yourself back together
They don’t see you
For who you really are
They don’t hear you or
Listen with their cold hearts
Ugliness is all
They want to see
But you are still
So beautiful to me

You’re not supposed
To be hearing this hurt
And you should never
Have to hear another word
You’re beauty is so strong
So strong that it blinds them
And there is nothing wrong
Just because you’re not one of them

They all look through you
And they don’t see you’re heart
They’re not listening
So don’t let them rip you apart

So please would you just
Hold on forever
Pick yourself up and just
Get yourself back together
They don’t see you
For who you really are
They don’t hear you or
Listen with their cold hearts
Ugliness is all
They want to see
But you are still
So beautiful to me

You’re beauty’s so strong
And I see nothing wrong
They’re not listening
They’re not seeing
And you’re hurting
And you’re bleeding
Don’t let them
Rip out your heart
Don’t let them
Rip your soul apart
You won’t let them
Push you down
You’ll never let them
Get you down
No one can ever
Take it all
No one will ever
Make you fall

So please would you just
Hold on forever
Pick yourself up and just
Get yourself back together
They don’t see you
For who you really are
They don’t hear you or
Listen with their cold hearts
Ugliness is all
They want to see
But you are still
So beautiful to me
You are, yes you are
So beautiful to me.x*

*INVISIBLE
I may believe
That I am here
I try to be
But I disappear

This emptiness is wrapping round me
It’s choking me
This loneliness just surrounds me
And it’s killing me

I want you to notice
When I’m not around
And I want you to see me
For who I really am
I want you to hear
When I call out your name
And I want you to cry
When you see me in pain
Can you please help me
When I’ve fallen down
And can you please notice
When I’m not around

I try to fit in
Is that so wrong
But you threw me away
And now I’ve gone

This emptiness is wrapping round me
It’s choking me
This loneliness just surrounds me
And it’s killing me

I want you to notice
When I’m not around
And I want you to see me
For who I really am
I want you to hear
When I call out your name
And I want you to cry
When you see me in pain
Can you please help me
When I’ve fallen down
And can you please notice
When I’m not around

I need you to ask me
Why I’m not there
I want you to pretend
That you care
I need you to ask me
What is wrong
And I want you to pretend
That I belong
I need you to help me
When I fall down
And I need you to notice
When I’m not around

I want you to notice
When I’m not around
And I want you to see me
For who I really am
I want you to hear
When I call out your name
And I want you to cry
When you see me in pain
Can you please help me
When I’ve fallen down
And can you please notice
When I’m not around

I’m invisible*

*I'VE GIVEN UP
i can't describe the way
the way that i feel
and i just can't see
see how this is real

i need to stay in and think for a while
because i don't want you to see me cry

i don't wanna climb
i just wanna fall
and i don't need to be free
so just take it all
i don't wanna struggle
i just wanna sink
and i don't need to smile
just leave me to think
its too hard
its too much
i've decided
that
i've
given up

i won't feel the way
the way i want to
coz at the end of the day
i just want you

i need to stay home and be alone for a while
because i don't want you to see me cry

i don't wanna climb
i just wanna fall
and i don't need to be free
so just take it all
i don't wanna struggle
i just wanna sink
and i don't need to smile
just leave me to think
its too hard
its too much
i've decided
that
i've
given up

and i can't
i know i can't
have what i had
because if i could
i would
take you back
and i can't
say what
i know i wanna say
because if i could
i'd tell you that i love you
every single day
and i won't
i know i won't
do what i want to
because if i could
i know i'd just want you

i don't wanna climb
i just wanna fall
and i don't need to be free
so just take it all
i don't wanna struggle
i just wanna sink
and i don't need to smile
just leave me to think
its too hard
its too much
i've decided
that
i've
given up

its so hard to say goodbye
i just don't want you to see me cry
and its too painful to see you smile
knowing that all i can do
is stay at home and think for a while

please don't say goodbye too much
please don't abandon me so early
please don't say goodbye too much
its just so easy to give up
give up
i've given up
i've given up...

i've given up*


*THE HARDEST THING
We’re sitting here
Silence fills this empty room
Please don’t look at me
Coz I can’t bare to look at you

I know I need to tell you this now
But I just can’t do it somehow
Because this is

The hardest thing
I think I’ve ever had to do
When I know it’s not over
And that I still love you
It’s the hardest thing
I think I’ve ever had to say
When I know I still need you
And I will love you always
And the hardest thing
Is to see you cry
But it’s even harder
To tell you goodbye

I’m starting to shake
And then I start to cry
You look at me closely
And I look away from your eyes

I’m thinking now
Of what to say to your
Beautiful face
And I don’t know how
But I have to look away from your
Beautiful gaze

I know I have to tell you tonight
But really it doesn’t mean that it’s right
Because this is

The hardest thing
I think I’ve ever had to do
When I know it’s not over
And that I still love you
It’s the hardest thing
I think I’ve ever had to say
When I know I still need you
And I will love you always
It’s the hardest thing
I think I’ve ever had to write
When all I ever wanted
Was just one kiss goodnight
And the hardest thing
Is to see you cry
But it’s even harder
To tell you goodbye

I just want to hold your hand
One more time, one more time, one more time
And I just hope that you understand
And I’ll be fine, I’ll be fine
I’ll be fine

Because this is

The hardest thing
I think I’ve ever had to do
When I know it’s not over
And that I still love you
It’s the hardest thing
I think I’ve ever had to say
When I know I still need you
And I will love you always
It’s the hardest thing
I think I’ve ever had to write
When all I ever wanted
Was just one kiss goodnight
And the hardest thing
Is to see you cry
But it’s even harder
To tell you goodbye*

*PLEASE FORGIVE ME
I hold you close
And I start to cry
I hug you tighter
And I close my eyes

This was never meant to happen
Not to you, not to me
This was never supposed to happen
It just wasn’t meant to be

You have no idea
How much I love you
But you have no idea
About what I put you through
It was only meant to be
Just a bit of fun
And then I find myself
Falling in love
He’s the one I dream about
The one that I long for
The one I can’t have
The one I want more
But you’re the one I know
I know we are meant to be
You’re the one I dream about
So please forgive me

I hold your hand
And the tears just fall
I squeeze your hand tighter
Why can’t we have it all?


This was never meant to happen
Not to you, not to me
This was never supposed to happen
It just wasn’t meant to be

You have no idea
How much I love you
But you have no idea
About what I put you through
It was only meant to be
Just a bit of fun
And then I find myself
Falling in love
He’s the one I dream about
The one that I long for
The one I can’t have
The one I want more
But you’re the one I know
I know we are meant to be
You’re the one I dream about
So please forgive me

You drop my hand
And you turn your back
You walk away slowly
And I hope you’re not mad

This was never meant to be
Not for you, no, not for me

You have no idea
How much I love you
But you have no idea
About what I put you through
It was only meant to be
Just a bit of fun
And then I find myself
Falling in love
He’s the one I dream about
The one I long for
The one I can’t have
The one I want more
But you’re the one I know
I know we are meant to be
You’re the one I dream about
So please forgive me

I’m sorry I didn’t tell you
What was going on
I’m sorry and I know that
I’m always in the wrong
I’m sorry that I did
All of this to you
And I’m sorry you didn’t know
That I loved you too
I’m sorry about so much
And causing all this mess
And I’m sorry for everything
Maybe you could just forget?

This was never meant to be
Not for you, no, not for me

You have no idea
How much I love you
But you have no idea
About what I put you through
It was only meant to be
Just a bit of fun
And then I find myself
Falling in love
He’s the one I dream about
The one I long for
The one I can’t have
The one I want more
But you’re the one I know
I know we are meant to be
You’re the one I dream about
So please forgive me

You
Have no idea
About how much I love you
And you
Have no idea
How much I wanna say sorry
Oh, you
Have no idea
But I know we’re meant to be
And you
You have no idea
How much you mean to me

This was never meant to be
So please would you please just
Forgive me?*

*CONFUSION
So many thoughts
In my mind
So many questions
I’m running out of time
So much buzzing
In this screwed up head
Too much confusion
Just go on ahead

Leave me behind
Again
Leave me to die
Again
Stay with me
Never leave
Please just help
Me to breathe

I hate you
For not loving me
I love you
And I know we should be
I’m holding my head
I can’t choose
Either way
I know I’m gonna lose

Too much thinking
About you
Too much crying
I love you too

Leave me behind
Again
Leave me to die
Again
Stay with me
Never leave
Please just help
Me to breathe

I hate you
For not loving me
I love you
And I know we should be
I’m holding my head
I can’t choose
Either way
I know I’m gonna lose

Too much crying
Too much depression
I think I’m dying
Trapped in this prison

Did I ever tell you
About how much you mean
To me?
Did you not know
How much I love you,
Did you not see?
I can’t let go
I can’t move on
But I can’t breathe
You need to leave
And now it’s all gone

Leave me behind
Again
Leave me to die
Again
Stay with me
Never leave
Please just help
Me to breathe

I hate you
For not loving me
I love you
And I know we should be
I’m holding my head
I can’t choose
Either way
I know I’m gonna lose*


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